Monday, March 1, 2010

Future plans!

     I have been having a really rough week. My babies aren't babies anymore & I have never been so baby hungry.  As some of you may know I have had some fertility issues. I got twins naturally & now cant get pregnant again! I have polycystic ovarian syndrome, so basically I dont make eggs & my hormones are all out of whack. Also it makes it super hard to loose weight, but super easy to gain it.
      The first round of fertility treatment I did was about a year ago & I got pregnant first try. But then very early in I had a miscarriage. Which was still really hard for me. I wanted it so bad & even though I only knew I was pregnant for a few weeks it was really awful to have that ripped away. In the end it was a blessing since I had to have some gall stones removed that were blocking my liver duct, then have my gall bladder removed.
    We tried probably 6 more rounds of the fertility drug clomid & had no luck. It is so emotionally exhausting & stressful we stopped. I just wish so badly I could be one of those women who can just get pregnant so easily. And I know i am not. And I know that if i can never have another baby it will hurt for a while but in the end I will still have the best little girls in the world. But I am hoping that if I can lose some of this dang weight it will help me get pregnant. So my goal, the next 3 or 4 months loose 20 pounds. Maybe one day, if I work really really hard I will be back to this pre baby pre polycistic skinnier girl!! I can dream right?

    Now onto a more upbeat subject! I am going on my first official vacation since I was a little girl!! Now I have been camping alot & to lake powell. But in April I am going on a girls trip to San Francisco!
 My mom, both my sisters, My Grandma & My Aunt Carol. No kids, No husbands, just us! We have so many things we are going to do there & it is just going to be so fun! I feel like a little kid waiting for  Christmas to be here! I cannot wait.
Daisypath Vacation tickers


  1. That is so hard Lisa, I hope that you can get prego soon. I know what it's like to have a miscarriage, it was one of the hardest things I've been through, it was so depressing. Hang in there. You have two beautiful girls and once you have a 3rd one you'll probably wonder what the rush was. It's hard with one older kid and a baby.

    That's so exciting about San Fransisco, that is one of my favorite place to vacation!

  2. Good Luck on getting pregnant again! It can be so hard sometimes, especially when everyone around you is popping out another one! From what I've seen, most girls get pregnant when they're NOT who knows :)

    I SO need a vacation but don't know when I'll ever be able to afford one...and then, where would I go? ha ha, I hope you have fun on your trip!